A Letter I Promised I wouldn't Send by Lloyd132, literature
Literature
A Letter I Promised I wouldn't Send
It's hard for me to make you understand exactly what it is I'm trying to say. A mix of emotions, reason, and past experiences, with a dash of extra special examinations of the soul. But I feel that I need to write this to you anyway, with the special mention of the fact that I seriously doubt I'm going to have you read this anyway.
I think the best way to explain is a simple sentence; that being somewhere along the lines of I don't love you. Or, maybe that's not quite the case. A better way to say it would probably be this: I can't get close to you. It's been what, eight, ten months? A large chunk of change that, while we haven't necessarily
Less Traveled, Less Ignored by Lloyd132, literature
Literature
Less Traveled, Less Ignored
I was standing at the crossroads, before me the King's Road or the Back Way, a grassy road that split into a million different paths going to a million different places. The sign was short and old, the words long gone, but I knew the way. I had been down the so called "Back Way" (it's real name had faded long before the sign) and been to almost every exit. It was a dangerous place, the forest that surrounded the road being the biggest haven for brigands and highwaymen in the known Kingdom. Amusing, since it was so close to the Capital City, though perhaps that wasn't so strange after all. Many with coin traveled this way, and some favored tim
Less Traveled, Less Ignored by Lloyd132, literature
Literature
Less Traveled, Less Ignored
I was standing at the crossroads, before me the King's Road or the Back Way, a grassy road that split into a million different paths going to a million different places. The sign was short and old, the words long gone, but I knew the way. I had been down the so called "Back Way" (it's real name had faded long before the sign) and been to almost every exit.
I had the choice. I could go the way I had always gone, the way I had built a life on.
But I went the way more traveled.
Because of my damnable curiosity.
I suppose, then, I had gone the way I had built a life on. A traveler was nothing without curiosity. It was just that this time, i
"I wonder sometimes, why is it that I love you." I stretched out the flag across the table, the round wooden table struggling to hold its shape in front of me. The flag's symbol was less willing, switching from symbol to symbol in front of my eyes, the touches of a dream messing with my eyes. I frowned. While I didn't know what it was I was looking at, I knew what it stood for: the symbol was of her, a woman that stood in the center of my heart. I picked up the table by the handle, shifting it into a pole, then a spear, flag attached at the shaft, wood pressing against my palm tightly. I smiled.
The scene shifted, taking me to a place I had
The table creaked under my weight, foot pushing me onto the back legs of my chair. I closed my eyes, darkness giving me a few moments of rest, hood pulled over my face. I knew this place; a murmur filled building, a place where I could and be alone, surrounded by people, silent and safe.
The murmurs stopped.
My eyes snapped open, shooting towards the door. He stood there, staring only at me, a force of nature come to find me.
My hands flipped to the hilt of my knife, hiding underneath the fabric of my cloak. I took a moment to gather more about him.
The city paled behind him; the snow looked grey behind the white of his armor. His coat wa
He moved silently, dashing in and out of the shadows, pulling out of the moonlight and disappearing completely, reappearing moments away. I struggled to catch up, my legs seeming too slow, frustrating me in my quest to keep with him.
He set up near a rock, placing his foot on it as a symbol of power and stance, pulling the bow from his back and nocking it with an arrow, pulling it back across his face. The moonlight struck his pitch black armor, light leather coated in the night, form showing his muscular structure while hiding any kind of identifiable measure. A cowl hid his face completely, mask covering his mouth and nose, revealing only
"You met me at a very strange time in my life"
is one way to say it.
Though to be honest, that sentence [or quote, if you want to be specific] implies that one part of my life was any less awkward than the rest.
This entry, this moment of my life that I'm writing down, involves the ideas of being too enchanted with the opposite sex.
Being too involved in perceived magic, too trusting in the otherworldly features of other people. Or, as it was so eloquently put; "Tell him he idealizes women too much."
Is there such a thing?
Is there no point in treating people with the utmost respect they deserve?
That she deserves?
I go back to thinki
Looking back is a great way to move forward.
I flipped through my old favorites, looking at my past self and what he wanted for the world.
It's really amazing how some things change and some things stay exactly the same.
I still remember exactly what he wanted.
A white dress, billowing on a frozen lake, a moment in time that would mean no going back.
A house on the grass, surrounded by nothing but a single tree on the top of a hill.
The smile of a lady, as she pulls her hair back around her ear.
And as I've gotten more used to the ideas that they will never happen, I also wonder what will happen to them. Where do dreams go, when they n
I wonder, a lot, where I'm supposed to go. I wonder, you know, what my fate is. Or, whether I even have one. I think it's something everyone wonders about at some time or another, I just tend to think about it on a more or less daily basis.
Do I have a purpose? Do I have a reason? Do I really have a chance at fulfilling my dream, or am I just being pulled along in a kind of cosmic joke, where I'm the butt of the joke at the end?
Who's to say? I know I personally have no idea. All I know is that I want that feeling, that feeling of her skin against mine, and her eyes searching my heart. It was something I experienced again today, her soul an
When I look at her, my Heaven burns away.
It's a horrible feeling, an absolute Tempest of light and shadow and joy and pain.
Because you see, as much as I love her, my time with her is limited.
"`Till Death do us part."
It's the final phrase in a wedding ceremony, something that everyone hears but I don't think anyone really thinks about.
Because you see, I was born to love her. I feel her with every fiber of my being, the Tempest in my heart swirls around for all to see.
But I don't think people realize the finality of that statement.
When she's gone, she's gone.
Forever.
That woman that I love so desperately will absolutely disappe